This
week my focus is on communication. I have realised how much knowledge I have
accumulated over the past 12 years, to restore my health from those dismal days
in which I floated in.
It was from an acquaintance that I
received a verbal slap in the face. Which had me waking up to how I had been
sabotaging my life, and how unaware I had been with the decisions I had been
making.
To put you into that scene… I sat at her kitchen table. I had recently been
released from hospital after learning to walk again and each day was agony.
With the intense cancer activity in my bones. I was a picture of living misery,
and couldn’t get my head above the pain and misery in which my life was stuck
in.
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| Cycle of pain and misery |
She showed no friendliness, no
compassion nor kindness and the message was delivered without a smile.
The message delivered was more in an
accusation tone. She looked me in the eyes and stated that every decision I had made had brought me to this point in my life. My sickness and the pain
I was experiencing and lived with was self inflicted. I burst into tears….. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. There is no
way on this earth I wanted to feel the physical pain I was trying to cope with.
BUT..
A few days later after the emotions had
calmed and cooled. I replayed those words over in my mind.
I came to the realisation, and I started
to agree with her. It was the beginning of my particular meditations in which I
would analyze words or situations which were causing me unrest in mind and
spirit.
No one had forced me to take the
prescription drug which was compounding the bone pain I was already
experiencing from the cancer. I had agreed to take the drug because I had been
given no other options or solutions. To then cope with this pain, I had been
prescribed a steroid which masked the pain to some extent, and compounded the
other issues with my sore and swollen feet, and the accumulation of fluid each
day. Then I was prescribed diuretics to negate the side effects from the
steroid. It was a never ending cycle of pills on a Merry-Go-Round.
At the end of the day…... the buck had to stop with me. I had agreed to
take these drugs. I had never questioned that the medical person had no
alternative options in their knowledge bank. I was taking so much medication I
rattled!.. AND none were there to let me heal. All the medications were just
trying to fix a symptom from a previous medication.
My priority was to find which drugs to
ditch first. One by one I eliminated all. As I have often stated it is 10 years
since I have taken any prescription medication for this so called incurable
cancer from medical science.
This little story and the regression
back to my past, will hopefully bring you around to see the point I am making
today.
I am finding I live in two different worlds and sometimes find it difficult to find words to bridge the gap and communicate well. It is similar to talking in two or three different languages. If you have worked in IT, you would relate to acronyms and the lingo for the computer world. Like CPU, RAM, AI, etc., etc.
Communicating with people is more
complicated because of how their beliefs and brains are hard-wired for what
they will or won’t believe.
Sometimes the gentle approach will not wake people up. They need that cold
bucket of water to wash over their senses. It is similar to shock therapy.
I do not want to see people experience
what I have been through. However, looking back I needed the bucket of cold
water because, I was so lost in the misery of the senses, and hadn’t engaged my analytical thinking and logic of how to
escape the misery, I had created for myself.
This experience taught me analytical meditation
and has developed into a second nature for me of seeing a situation, and being
able to observe without becoming too caught up, in the emotional senses which
could have me drowning again.
This week reminded me of how much
knowledge and growth I have accomplished. I have concentrated my willpower into
writing a book and bringing much of my knowledge learnt to share with many
people. This project is also proving to be a worthwhile learning exercise.
My gut reaction is to curl up in a
little ball when frustrated or disappointed with an outcome. Now I recover so
much quicker, and get my head out of the emotional storm from the limitations
being presented by others and find alternatives. I had an unforeseen setback
which slowed me down a day.
Regardless, I have been receiving orders from
people, so if you could give me some indication if you interested in ordering,
by filling out the form from the link below. In the subject header if you could tell
me how many books. It would be appreciated.
This week I will be placing
the order for the published books, and it will make it easier to gauge the
interest and the quantities of books for the order.
I hope you have all had a wonderful
week.
Stay Strong
Karen
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