Friday, 20 July 2018


This week I wish to share something personal, which was written last year by a dear friend when she knew the pain I relived to write my book.

Certain friendships can’t be quantified, and to this day it remains a mystery on, how precious friendships are forged, and kept through the most trying of trials and times.

I still can’t read it - without it bringing a tear to my eye. Such is the power of words, and the heartstrings when attached in friendship and love.

After reading this poem, it became clear how difficult it was for this precious friend. As she stood silently by and watched from a distance as I battled for the right to live. This week, I would like to say a public and a very special thank you to her from everything I hold dear, and all the values I have learnt in this lifetime.

I lost many a friend when there was no hope for my survival. BUT to the ones who respected my wishes on fighting cancer my way and stood by me… I thank you all.

Dearest Chookie,

You have taught me the true power of friendship, a lesson I needed to learn.

Thank you XXOO

To many of my other readers, and all precious people facing their own heartaches with health or a life crisis. I hope you have found precious friends like I have learnt to treasure…. all with heart strings attached!

Stay Strong!


Saturday, 14 July 2018



Unless you have been close to death, some of my ramblings this week will mean diddly squat, or have little meaning and as if I am speaking in another language!

I found my sixth sense and instincts became heightened, and I have been using them for years, and have come to rely and trust explicitly. It is hard to turn them off. I have learnt not to question my instincts or senses. Many a time I didn’t want to follow my gut instinct, but I have finally learnt not to question. Go figure… are your instincts are they heightened and switched on? I wonder how many others also have a heightened awareness. Are they like me?

Anyway onto other matters for the week…….

What I have growing in my garden and what I have been eating, and my pastime activities?

My winter garden is providing me with fresh kale leaves and lovely fresh dill which is picked and I add to my banana smoothies for breakfast each morning.  Tramping out in the cold dewy grass in the crisp air, is not my favourite past time nor is getting up early in the winter mornings. I have spent enough early winter mornings getting up at 4 am or earlier to study or work, and no longer feel the slightest bit of guilt about what time I get out on a winter morning anymore. I have given myself permission to do what is right for my health, and so I can hang around and write to inspire others needing a little encouragement or a helping hand.

Cleaning out the garden of the dead leaves and plants which have died back in winter was grounding and brought me closer to nature. I enjoyed listening to the sounds of the birds as they warble and twitter to each other during the day.

Picking the large pumpkins which grow in the backyard, to make the usual pumpkin and ginger soup for lunches and evening meals is another delight, and pleasure for the cold days over winter.

Tomorrow I look forward to picking oranges, lemons and passion fruit with a friend, and sharing the fruit crop on our trees. Our garden is bountiful and even though I don’t eat the oranges or passion fruit, I can share more with others.

I had a blitz on cryptic crosswords puzzles this week whilst snuggled up and cosy. I always enjoy finding a new perspective or way at looking at the clues to unearth the answers, and the ones I am really stuck on ….well I do peek at the answers when really bamboozled, but that OK isn’t it?

I trust you have all had a good week? Did you find inspiration? Did you discover something new about yourself you didn’t know? Did you discover something new in the world you didn’t know before?

My greatest gift received last week was a message from someone thanking me for my book and for giving them hope. I feel as though I am walking beside them on their challenge, and if my book is holding their hand, offering hope and encouragement. I have found my inspiration, happiness and peace.

I think this week, I will search for something different in music…maybe visit some singing groups I haven’t heard of for a while, or something totally new will cross my path. What do you have on your list to enjoy and discover this week?

Stay Strong!


Saturday, 7 July 2018


Pondering this week, has led me to look closer at inspiration?
What is it? Where does it come from?

What is the process of inspiration?
Is it a creative idea or thought, transformed into energy and action?

Is it a process mentally stimulated, then transformed into emotional positive energy and from there into an action, to make an ordinary life into an inspiring life or resulting in an ordinary person, living an extraordinary life?

How is this sparked?

Is it coming to the realisation that ordinary people have done extraordinary things against troubling circumstances? You couldn’t see yourself surviving that life challenge or test and that inspires you to do well and to try harder.
To change your current circumstances or to look at your life in a different perspective.

To create something out of the ordinary

Hmmmm ... where does this come from?
Where to start?

Think back to when you were a child… were you inspired by a person like a teacher, or by reading a book? Maybe inspired by a movie or movie star? Being inspired by nature is also popular.

I see the process as an idea, fused with a positive emotional response, it then converts into a physical action. Resulting in the energy levels being ramped up by the positive thought towards a particular goal. e.g. losing weight, taking a holiday, a commitment to take better care of yourself.
Many business ideas have come from someone becoming inspired by being aware of a need and gap in a society which needs to be addressed. Turning a negative experience, or circumstance into something positive.

How to be inspired, and stay inspired when life becomes humdrum, and the energy levels and thoughts are not sparking inspiration in your life? That is the conundrum. What do you  do?

When Inspiration is not being created from within you.

Have you ever thought or considered that leaders in our community and society carry this question with them regularly. How to inspire the troops when the leader has no inspiration?
Inspiration is more than oozing a high energy output. It is showing passion, enthusiasm and belief of yourself and your actions which become infectious to those around you. Similar to a yawn or an infectious laugh. It can be easily transmitted.
It is getting it off the ground - most people struggle with…. and then maintaining it on a regular basis if you are a leader.
Having inspiration usually means you want to change something in your life.
Do you want more depth?
More meaning?
More purpose?
What thought do you start with?
What memory do you have?
Is it a dream of a better future you can create for yourself, to escape current circumstances?
Are only the persistent - and people with strong willpower the inspirational ones?
Is it never giving up on your thought and idea when the circumstances are tough?
For me it is transforming my current life and circumstances into a life with purpose and meaning, and then I carry the hope in my heart with the thought. I may be able to help someone through a trying and difficult time.
I couldn’t do it without feeling passionate.

I write for all those special people out there battling a life crisis or health issue. I feel for you and know how difficult it can be to remain positive and not give up on yourselves.

For this week, on your TO DO LIST.

Find something which is so inspiring your heart soars. 
SEARCH... for it until you find that sweet spot which 
settles in your heart, mind and soul.

For some…. being inspired brings a tear to your eye, a lump in your throat and a feeling in your heart rarely felt. So you cradle and hold that thought and emotion gently so it doesn’t slip through your grasp. It brings out a tenderness you haven’t felt for a long time.

Inspiration can be mind blowing or gentle and subtle, and sometimes a real tear jerker. You will know it when it finds you.

Actively seek it... if it cannot be found within you.

Welcome it like a long-lost friend!

Stay Strong!


Friday, 29 June 2018


I work hard to escape misfortunes in my life after becoming consciously aware that most misfortunes we experience in life is by our own hand.

This enquiry into why my life was experiencing so much misfortune, in particular - health wise. Leading me to the study of ZEN. In many of its cryptic teachings and riddles combined with self observation of my inherent nature. I learnt a great deal of wisdom.


I do not embrace the spirit of ZEN as a religion, a science or a philosophy although many do.

I choose the essence and spirit of ZEN because the wisdom and understanding of the simple practices has made me independent, requiring no mentor or instructor. Focusing on learning and improving my existence.

It started with the desire and craving of beauty and inner peace. I consciously stopped being the victim of my circumstances. This leads to the accepting of the mind and a grateful heart.

View from my office window

Learning to find oneself enables one to lead a serene existence no longer being blown about by the storms of circumstance. Self discipline and a study of oneself and actions - is all that is required. ZEN is often described as an abstract meditation, it is the study of existence beyond the mind.

This abstract style of meditation is based on your individual experience and not based on written instruction. Therefore ZEN is not packaged and sold as a one size fits all. It caters to YOU. Your perfect individualism and your essence. You are stripped of all the worldly preconceptions and expectations from the outer world. Similar to a boutique dress shop which caters just for your physical size, shape and colour. ZEN fits our natures by focusing on the inner world of the individual.

ZEN is concerned totally with the inner life of the individual. By studying one’s own nature you come to understand yourself and know - “What is I and what is not I”

You discover and learn that each experience in your life is the direct result of a previous choice. If you take a moment to reflect back over a misfortune or experience, you are not fond of. You will see a pattern emerge of the choice or choices you made leading up to that experience. This leads you to make better choices and change circumstances that seem to repeat on a regular basis or pattern. There is no blame associated with this thinking. It is an awareness of the domino effect based on individual choices we make subconsciously which are not in our best interest for peace and serenity.

Inner peace is obtained through proper control of our thoughts and emotions. Developing one's character through experience and this style of meditation. This discipline eventually leading to freedom of thought and emotions without stress and tensions. This is also described as QUIETUDE… a peace and sereneness in one's life.

The study of ZEN leads to proper control of reducing the powers of external factors to disturb the inner life.

For me, if it means not watching the news on television
 for a week or more, then this is what I do.

I value my peace and serenity above the chaos and humdrum presented everyday on the news.

I have found true happiness and peace of soul as a result of complete acceptance of the universal laws of nature. Self will and self purpose leads to a more truthful reality.

All that is required, is a quiet determination and being attentive and persistent. This right mindedness as it is often described, leads to complete mental freedom. Releasing ourselves from the harsh and unfair thoughts and emotions - hence resulting in more happiness. The realisation that:-

By choosing to live badly
We choose to suffer
If you don’t want weeds in your life
Become diligent at pulling them out
Don’t be neglectful and use lack of time as an excuse.

Zen does not use the concept of time as in yesterday or tomorrow these concepts enslave us. The practice of Zen encourages us to focus on the NOW. By focusing on the NOW it is neither yesterday nor tomorrow it is timeless and always present. By focusing on the NOW you are always present in your life.

Remember yesterday or the past is only a memory of NOW. This may be a different concept of how we look at situations and circumstances in our life. If you make the PRESENT right in your life, then the flow of life becomes easier.

This has lead to an acceptance and eagerness in improving myself, and I can only write about my own experiences. The study of ZEN has lead me to acting with simplicity and untangled from complications I do not want in my life.

It has granted me solving powers to the problems life presents to me, all I need is solitude to practice my quietude. Some people value these qualities more than others, therefore needing more solitude than others.

Stay Strong!


Friday, 22 June 2018


This week's posting is short and sweet...BUT...if you sit and reflect upon these profound words. 

Taking the time to be totally honest with yourself and how happy and at peace you are in your life. Sometimes we need to stand back from the intensity to gain perspective.

The personal power and strength to create, lies absolutely and totally with you!

(Note: "He" is interpreted as HUMAN BEING)

Stay Strong!